there's a vaccination scar
on my left shoulder
from when i was
a kid in vietnam
and on the 66 once
i saw an old vet
with the same scar
on his shoulder
an indented circle
a nub
i didn't know
what answers to give,
so i felt foolish.
i know now that
it was because
i never asked the questions
my dad drew
a cartoon of a man
on one of the hundreds
of Smith Barney Shearson
paper pads we had in the basement
( i never knew how we got so
many of those pads and i believe
we were told, or rather what we told
ourselves was that someone
in the family
got it through
work
"i used to draw
a lot as a child
myself."
he drew a strange
creature that resembled
a man, with two arms
and two legs and clothing
but with a very large snout
almost like a hippo
or pigsy
the same room,
the game room
the nintendo,
the cold floor
i remember not being very impressed
with my dad's drawing as he grinned
and laughed sheepishly for how rusty he was
having almost drawn nothing but blueprints and boxes
for almost as long as we've been here
fwd-operating-base
June 16, 2015
February 1, 2015
July 2, 2014
did he ever get me with the Deems tune
I was in the alcove of the place by Oscar's which sold
shoes and in the door of Bikram Yoga, I grabbed everything
she's idle in the minds of men
I quickened my pace once double-stepped it out
of Oregon and saw the layering of the purplish-grey clouds
knew I was in for quite the sweat
and quite the cold shower
I was in the alcove of the place by Oscar's which sold
shoes and in the door of Bikram Yoga, I grabbed everything
she's idle in the minds of men
I quickened my pace once double-stepped it out
of Oregon and saw the layering of the purplish-grey clouds
knew I was in for quite the sweat
and quite the cold shower
July 1, 2014
long
living in the manner of care
which is farcical,
I yam dulled by reeding
and righting, am pumped quickly,
deflated over years,
with only humor
as the sole
what ruff skin forms
after a time w/ the English-mades
need that pumice, man,
after all the sweat is wiped
I make my intended mark
settle into my mind
laff all night
long
which is farcical,
I yam dulled by reeding
and righting, am pumped quickly,
deflated over years,
with only humor
as the sole
what ruff skin forms
after a time w/ the English-mades
need that pumice, man,
after all the sweat is wiped
I make my intended mark
settle into my mind
laff all night
long
cave neck
tried rolling
my neck to the left
and then the right
all around really
hearing the crinkles
and low fizzing
popping,
was essentially a noodle at the desk
I had closed out several potential clients
Holden Ransome was one of their names
I didn't close her, no, she was one of the few worth
putting down in Dave's notebook
( he had categories:
celebrity, prurient,
first names that were similar to last
[e.g., Richard Richardson],
and downright silly
don't get to see much of him now in my cave
I have an 'experience the experience' poster board leftover
from a time before I had started,
clipped two of those suckers together
and created a neat little roof for myself,
it's for my eyes
I tell people when they ask
they're very light sensitive
June 25, 2014
poems - june 25th
big goose has a
fitting caboose
shakes her
droplets loose
only to vamoose
.
hey friend w/ a cig
I liked you
when I stood big.
some way in the
past, 9,000 days
when you stand
at the lake --
Some way,
I felt a reluctance
to speak out
and Knowing there
was nothing left to
shout about --
in my own interests --
practice empathy,
yes, why
yes
it's your virtue
but not mine.
.
hold a washcloth
over Niedecker's
head,
bump her by the river,
smell the grass
between her toes,
think & ready
to imagine
Ryan Eckes as
an infant in her
arms.
.
Some damn slope
crammed.
choke - slump on
the rug.
take a long meditative
shit, give myself a hug.
.
how do you hurt me
by living out the
rest of your awful
life?
And w/ that awful
man?
And what you call
a plan?
.
Mirror was her
grandmother's
elbow sore from
poetry ( believe it )
and the tip of the
lamp (from U-ARTS
- lounge, stolen)
peeks out of
the bottom.
Not yet in the
egg,
floating helplessly
through spacetime.
To lose is that.
To win is also that.
To not play
the egg
is to
further delay
toes
from
waves
.
I propose blood
brother ritual
having none all
of my life
and only learning
afterward
how to
rally for blood.
fitting caboose
shakes her
droplets loose
only to vamoose
.
hey friend w/ a cig
I liked you
when I stood big.
some way in the
past, 9,000 days
when you stand
at the lake --
Some way,
I felt a reluctance
to speak out
and Knowing there
was nothing left to
shout about --
in my own interests --
practice empathy,
yes, why
yes
it's your virtue
but not mine.
.
hold a washcloth
over Niedecker's
head,
bump her by the river,
smell the grass
between her toes,
think & ready
to imagine
Ryan Eckes as
an infant in her
arms.
.
Some damn slope
crammed.
choke - slump on
the rug.
take a long meditative
shit, give myself a hug.
.
how do you hurt me
by living out the
rest of your awful
life?
And w/ that awful
man?
And what you call
a plan?
.
Mirror was her
grandmother's
elbow sore from
poetry ( believe it )
and the tip of the
lamp (from U-ARTS
- lounge, stolen)
peeks out of
the bottom.
Not yet in the
egg,
floating helplessly
through spacetime.
To lose is that.
To win is also that.
To not play
the egg
is to
further delay
toes
from
waves
.
I propose blood
brother ritual
having none all
of my life
and only learning
afterward
how to
rally for blood.
June 18, 2014
where the night is deep
I have a place for you
after I am sapped of strength
you are devout to the color
.
walking over the flower
my mouth reddish at the gate
full and wonderfully articulate
biting for its own pleasure
.
I wasted much time in water
roaring rather than stillness
she smacked the surface
in a moment of boldness
I have a place for you
after I am sapped of strength
you are devout to the color
.
walking over the flower
my mouth reddish at the gate
full and wonderfully articulate
biting for its own pleasure
.
I wasted much time in water
roaring rather than stillness
she smacked the surface
in a moment of boldness
play on play on 36
The dry tones bide, they bide. You book out
to nowhere.
-- E-Z, E-Z, Mr Nimh, the words are on yr side,
companions, too, keep grief.
-- I sent a leaf away, spat in my hair
cuz clever. Wif all them in line (some again)
they've sympathy, at least I can breathe.
-- Shiet. 'Ow you figure me, ey. 'Ows you & I?
A pill for that worrying rasp; do & die.
-- Yeh, don't pick up no cents
even in the interim, then. And if I
rolling & smoking & choking, red eyed,
rummaging for that single token?
-- Some bouts just meant for studs. Yr heart ain't lost.
It's alright, I'm a fool for that.
The boy & his hair
looked at each other. His feet in moss
& wiggled light through his tears, his fat.
Yr favorite poet's where?
(Quyen laying on the ground.)
to nowhere.
-- E-Z, E-Z, Mr Nimh, the words are on yr side,
companions, too, keep grief.
-- I sent a leaf away, spat in my hair
cuz clever. Wif all them in line (some again)
they've sympathy, at least I can breathe.
-- Shiet. 'Ow you figure me, ey. 'Ows you & I?
A pill for that worrying rasp; do & die.
-- Yeh, don't pick up no cents
even in the interim, then. And if I
rolling & smoking & choking, red eyed,
rummaging for that single token?
-- Some bouts just meant for studs. Yr heart ain't lost.
It's alright, I'm a fool for that.
The boy & his hair
looked at each other. His feet in moss
& wiggled light through his tears, his fat.
Yr favorite poet's where?
(Quyen laying on the ground.)
June 11, 2014
rough things
she's not a swallow,
but she flies:
ow I see what was up,
let all cars return home.
I dance excessively with my wifey
our story was always straight,
no welts or grubs nor did the earth
chuck black clouds at us
if you keep an air conditioner at 72 you're cheatin' it,
when you come home to a damp towel
-- can someone give me a light outside?
I'll meet you anywhere you say
does it have an inside?
do you have an inside?
now, if you'll allow
me, I'm going to
suck out
the remaining
poison
but she flies:
ow I see what was up,
let all cars return home.
I dance excessively with my wifey
our story was always straight,
no welts or grubs nor did the earth
chuck black clouds at us
if you keep an air conditioner at 72 you're cheatin' it,
when you come home to a damp towel
-- can someone give me a light outside?
I'll meet you anywhere you say
does it have an inside?
do you have an inside?
now, if you'll allow
me, I'm going to
suck out
the remaining
poison
June 9, 2014
floral echoes
of an airplane
jet dress
some dude's
asscrack
as our space
invaded
reminds me of
Denki Groove
was it laughter
or a sneeze
the man did it
after a cough
after a
concern about
bald head
an older gentleman
w/ a limp and
heavy pack
stopped in
food supplement
program
combed his beard
up to eight
times, then
walked on
---
throw snowball
watch a crow fight
clouds so close
i can almost
pee on em
of an airplane
jet dress
some dude's
asscrack
as our space
invaded
reminds me of
Denki Groove
was it laughter
or a sneeze
the man did it
after a cough
after a
concern about
bald head
an older gentleman
w/ a limp and
heavy pack
stopped in
food supplement
program
combed his beard
up to eight
times, then
walked on
---
throw snowball
watch a crow fight
clouds so close
i can almost
pee on em
June 5, 2014
fresh ass summer poems
Set sun set!
Before long I'll
forget
unbutton two,
also unhinge
foom! it's the wind
on the roof
whiskey and ginge
I'm looking into the
sun and not
giving a shit
for a little while
Even after
all these years
the beef ho fun
at Tasty Place
is still incredible
it has gone up
at least $2
now $6.
when you close yr
eyes and look
you got sunvision
swivel yr eyeballs
around and see
dark spots.
---
cracking my back
pop pop
snap!
sometimes nothing
comes out
Before long I'll
forget
unbutton two,
also unhinge
foom! it's the wind
on the roof
whiskey and ginge
I'm looking into the
sun and not
giving a shit
for a little while
Even after
all these years
the beef ho fun
at Tasty Place
is still incredible
it has gone up
at least $2
now $6.
when you close yr
eyes and look
you got sunvision
swivel yr eyeballs
around and see
dark spots.
---
cracking my back
pop pop
snap!
sometimes nothing
comes out
so hard evenings
to sink a few,
sit, smoke, and
grow sick by the
absent pudge
g-ness how I luv
green beer glass
half sunken ass
by thecarbonated
fountain fizzy
but do not let
the sky paint
itself
last night, toward
the west,
one broad
stroke like you
wouldn't believe it.
I sat and slouched
smiling as never
all the possible
shapes of states
in dry tar
white countries
to gray and
us black
mouth of islands
from a rust ring
instant motorcycle
instant alarm
modern church
bell tolls
digital Dodge honks
and a third
alarm!
something like a
whacked-out
symphony of
south philly
precise V tool
rosewood to go
seek out
anti-intellectualism
-- and always my color
two
a Celestial & an
Irishman sat
a+ a +able
in a bar
to sink a few,
sit, smoke, and
grow sick by the
absent pudge
g-ness how I luv
green beer glass
half sunken ass
by the
fountain fizzy
but do not let
the sky paint
itself
last night, toward
the west,
one broad
stroke like you
wouldn't believe it.
I sat and slouched
smiling as never
all the possible
shapes of states
in dry tar
white countries
to gray and
us black
mouth of islands
from a rust ring
instant motorcycle
instant alarm
modern church
bell tolls
digital Dodge honks
and a third
alarm!
something like a
whacked-out
symphony of
south philly
precise V tool
rosewood to go
seek out
anti-intellectualism
-- and always my color
two
a Celestial & an
Irishman sat
a+ a +able
in a bar
You hear
about my little
wind
fall?
I wasn't busy
killing my wife
either --
cut my leg w/ sharp
corner of bag
I believe it is
good afternoon
I suppose you
came for a
confession,
chance at togetherness
you're gonna love
what facts
we got here.
roughly cost?
3,000
anxiety relief
come in the form
of 1600 dollars
about my little
wind
fall?
I wasn't busy
killing my wife
either --
cut my leg w/ sharp
corner of bag
I believe it is
good afternoon
I suppose you
came for a
confession,
chance at togetherness
you're gonna love
what facts
we got here.
roughly cost?
3,000
anxiety relief
come in the form
of 1600 dollars
May 22, 2014
sunday breakfast
draw us in that escape, brother!
if the entire thing fuckin' all of a sudden collapsed, first:
throw remaining joint in mouth,
throw ice coffee through window into bedroom
dive through window into bedroom or
if too late, brace yrself tight against the iron
for use as rollcage, aim for minivan roof across the street
if the entire thing fuckin' all of a sudden collapsed, first:
throw remaining joint in mouth,
throw ice coffee through window into bedroom
dive through window into bedroom or
if too late, brace yrself tight against the iron
for use as rollcage, aim for minivan roof across the street
May 20, 2014
tanks for saving my liiife
what new finds at the bottom of the sink screen
I was there, without my father, he,
who was chewing on the two
Oscars I raised, I cleaned
rocks found on the side of the blvd
to set them at a natural angle.
One day in my uncle's, perhaps 75 gal,
I found a young albino
Cichlid, pale pink
laying at the very bottom
on the multicolored gravel
struggle struggled to take water
I plucked him out of the tank
gently pried open his mouth with my nail
and saw a bright orange pebble caught inside
I was there, without my father, he,
who was chewing on the two
Oscars I raised, I cleaned
rocks found on the side of the blvd
to set them at a natural angle.
One day in my uncle's, perhaps 75 gal,
I found a young albino
Cichlid, pale pink
laying at the very bottom
on the multicolored gravel
struggle struggled to take water
I plucked him out of the tank
gently pried open his mouth with my nail
and saw a bright orange pebble caught inside
May 13, 2014
'a' or chinee foo
Yeh I feel like we all trim
that stanza like a bonsai
take out the 'a' and say
while stroking beard
and holding birdcage
that stanza like a bonsai
take out the 'a' and say
while stroking beard
and holding birdcage
a place!
Ready to rock
steady de kane,
home with
arthritis African
Rift the new moon,
she making positive funs
of me, the essay
set forth the technical
principles
that composition by smell of pork
and rhyme schemes
as the modern stave, I haven't
yet purchased the breath
form is ever
from the inside out, returning Onion
to its Pepper
Beauty simply destroy me
in setting, city, lamb,
where the rest of
us could not be seen
awaiting a land lord's reply
pink and sprinkled
with money
to Stir,
with Love
steady de kane,
home with
arthritis African
Rift the new moon,
she making positive funs
of me, the essay
set forth the technical
principles
that composition by smell of pork
and rhyme schemes
as the modern stave, I haven't
yet purchased the breath
form is ever
from the inside out, returning Onion
to its Pepper
Beauty simply destroy me
in setting, city, lamb,
where the rest of
us could not be seen
awaiting a land lord's reply
pink and sprinkled
with money
to Stir,
with Love
May 12, 2014
The Schuylkill (The New Pastoral 1871)
The Schuylkill,
Its green banks
Faire Mount
Lifted as
The height
Pours, from
The stream
Here, stranger
Which knew
Here trod
Lenni Lenape Indians
called it 'Ganshewchanna'
meaning 'Noisy Stream'.
They made Penn a small canoe,
a light birchen, quietly
propelling him.
He claimed in a letter
to the Society of Friends
that the river be 'hundred
miles boatable.'
I flew my silken pennants down the river and found myself often thirsty and at times, bored.
Its green banks
Faire Mount
Lifted as
The height
Pours, from
The stream
Here, stranger
Which knew
Here trod
Lenni Lenape Indians
called it 'Ganshewchanna'
meaning 'Noisy Stream'.
They made Penn a small canoe,
a light birchen, quietly
propelling him.
He claimed in a letter
to the Society of Friends
that the river be 'hundred
miles boatable.'
I flew my silken pennants down the river and found myself often thirsty and at times, bored.
May 9, 2014
Old Vinegar (or Old Vineyard's Folly)
a well for every heart & house
a well for my eye
though my heart is upon
some spirit drive me
more than a cen-
tury
up from Pennsylvania
a well for my eye
though my heart is upon
some spirit drive me
more than a cen-
tury
up from Pennsylvania
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